Interests:alot of things.. like being dis famalies babiee! hehe and luvn u much hehe!!
Expertise:iLuViNyEw..!!! and FALLIN' FOR YOU
Occupation:Student Industry:Education/Research
HAH, okay so it's been forever since i've been on this stupid thing and actually wrote something, so i guess ill start doing it again, just for the heck of it, since i'm major bored. and have nothing else to do :D YAY!
hah, so it's summer of 08.. i am officially a fricken senior! OH MAN! ahha high school is one year away from being over, my summers been pprretty good.
started off bad though, so i guess me and tommys relationship is OFF.. we're done for now.. ehh.. 4 years and something months.. we ended on uhhmm june 20? right around when summer started..
but i kept myself occupied with living a life for once.. i volunteered at saint philomena summer day camp.. :] met cool kids and had fun.. that went on for two weeks.. and i went out almost everyday for the 1st 2 weeks of summer. yay.. oh and aha i got my license right before summer started! hah june 4th :D at compton dmv yeee! hahh after a lot of license bullshit :D
then hmnmmm idkk i had a great spring break this year too, spent time with the cousins.. went up north helped my brother move into his new apartment.. ehh yea haha, all i remember was me and T fighting, so i didnt get to see him.. ehh..
then summer school started.. had fun, meeting new people talking to new friends, and being in the hot ass sun and practicing 3 times a week :D
went to cefiore :D it was goood. went to yogurtland HAD funnnn ;] , the pike, the aquarium, lakewood and rolling hills, & california adventure :D walked around carson and all that.. so i had a good summer so far.. :] its almost overr thoughh.
excited but majorly scared for this year, oh man oh man! haha oh and yea.. i guess i forgot to mention, I'm captain of the Carson High Drill Team.. hah.. & my 17th bday is coming up! YAY! and football season is almost here yayyy!!!!!!!!!!!!! k well im done for now. k byee
(11:10:49 AM): Laying awake with my eyes open wide. & my heart closed shut.. Finding myself without you ...
:] my happiness my joy. the tears.. all these years. funny, I can live. and i will breathe..
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You were all I ever need and now I realize that life is worth living no matter what happens. You are and will always be the core that helped me build up all my potential I thank you for all you've given me. My promises, will be kept. because you.. You're my savior. You're the missing piece. You're the reason. And no matter how hard it is to say. I still and always will love you 11:15AM 5/24/08
standing here in plain site for everyone to see, typically waiting for someone, like you to notice me concenplating when's the perfect time to strike wishing you'd fall for me with all my might stronger than i seemed months before i still cry deep within, struggling has never stopped smiles still not here to stay but still i don't stray away, from the thought of getting you never do i feel, the need to say i don't care i prove in ways, that maybe i am insane i see through the eyes of one who sees all through the colors i believe that things are just too senseless, people just don't care my actions mean nothing, but do i care? no and this is because i do as i mother fck`n please others have did me wrong & i did believe but now i won't and now i just don't because as i see i've gone literally insane.. cause now. all i see is black and white.
well here i am.. confused.. i don't know what to do.. and i don't understand who i am.. i'm going crazy.. i miss him.. but i'm soo confused.. soo much shiet going on.. i know i want him.. and that's all i seem to need.. but i don't know what to do.. i feel like falling to my knees..
me and him that's how it was since 9-27 truely insane but we were in the true state of heaven we are meant to be but why are we currently stuck in misery complication is the game and frustration is to blame caught up in this shit, it's just a shame i don't know where to go i feel like i'm soo close, like i'm just about to blow i'm wonderin where this is all going to lead you and me together? as we said, always and forever? never, ever, would i want to fall and be decieved you made me excel to want to live to achieve the one who opened my eyes to believe i fell in love with a boy who changed into a man and we showed eachother, that no one else can be the one i want to spend my whole life with be married and have kids and support you like a wife did how a babieeghurl like me loves like i do and you see baby boo i know we've done wrong but we never seem to see above all this shiet and the pain and misery we got happiness deep down inside no reason to deny all the shit we did right the things that made us happy brought a smile upon our faces it's all just the paces of our life we gotta step to this beat joyfully proclaim we're soulmates we're meant to be and we have no fck`n shame
